Random Things In Life

        I was never understand how some people love to listen to the music with full volume, like the speaker can burst at a time. Even in my room or in my car, I never play my music with maximum volume. Like medium volume is enough to disturb me. It just make me feel uncomfortable. 

        But now I know, and I feel it too. Sometimes we turn on the music out loud to silence our mind. To keep them a little bit quite so they can't hurt our heart. It's scary how our own mind can be the one who hurts us so badly. How our thought can be the one who pushes us to the edge. And out loud music can muffle them a little bit, even it's temporary, we all need a break right?

Today I'm awake with smile in my face. Waking up with a very happy feeling. Haha its so rarely happen. Cause you know, I hate to wake up in the morning.

I want to tell you about that dream. Wanna know it? Here you go..

I don't know how the beginning, but the point is, I dreamed about 'him'. No, not my boyfriend. Hehe I never have and never will have a boyfriend cause you know I'm JoSH. InsyaAllah.

So I like this one guy in my dream 'him' ( I really dont know who is he in real life ) but his father doesn't like me and my mom doesn't like him, but she like someone else 'boy'.
Boy comes with his parrent to offering engagement. I was sleep in my room. So my mom decide it alone. She said yes. So in my dream I'm awake with angry, sad, and confused feeling. But i can't mad to my mom. When i checked my phone, my mom send a message to him 'Sorry today i was engaged to someone else'. And him only read it. Maybe him was surprised. I wanna cry. I really wanna cry. I love him.

I open up a good relationship with boy. Trying to hide that I was broke. And I hear (don't know who tell me) that him was engaged too. More more and more I feeling really disappointed to him. My heart really breaks to a thousands part.

Him said that's he loves me too? Him said all the sweet things in the world to me.
But him accepted to engaged with someone else?
I can't believe it. Really.

So I continuing this engagement with boy. I was really sad. And maybe my mom knows it. So once again she hacked my phone and make boy anggry with me by saying that I'm in love with someone else. So boy mention all my ex (I have  many ex in my dream hehe) and she replied maybe.
Boy don't want to meet me anymore I don't know what's in my mom's head. So I really angry and run to my mom. I cry, scream, and grumble to my mom.

One day, I meet him in a street. We ignoring each other. Deep inside I feel like a crazy. I really wanna cry in him arm. But him belongs to someone else. Not mine! So I just walk away with this heavy feeling.

I forget what happen next.
But I was in a mosque. Him come to me. I trhow my face away. Ignoring him. I said "go away you're not mine. I can't touch you even just your hand. You belongs to someone else. At least respect your fiancee"

"That's bullshit. You know I was your" Him replied.

I dont belive it and still trow my face away.

Till him say "I swear. From the very begining my hand and my heart was all yours"

And I realize that him not lying. Cause him swearing in mosque. In Allah's house.

I forget what happen next. Maybe my mom and him's father already approve us. But I wake with a smile in my face. Happy endiiiinggg.. The enddddd hehehehe

Thats it? Yeah haha you know dream is hard to remember.
And those are what still stuck in my head. Hehe

I consider this is was Allah's answer. For me to be patient. Waiting him to come in my real life~
Too much watching movie? It's okay... It's one of my strength to ignoring handsome boys around me. Cause i really wanna feel a relationship after marriage.

Thats what I have for you guys. I hope you're not bore to visit my blog that always telling about him haha.

Hope you enjoyed my dream :p

Note: maybe I add some spice to the story cause I dont really remember it. But thats the point.